There have been times when I think we do not desire heaven; but more often I find myself wondering whether, in our heart of hearts, we have ever desired anything else…. Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even in the best) of that something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching for, listening for? You have never HAD it. All the things that have ever deeply possessed your soul have been but hints of it – tantalizing glimpses, promises never quite fulfilled, echoes that died away just as they caught your ear. But if it should really become manifest – if there ever came an echo that did not die away but swelled into the sound itself – you would know it. Beyond all possibility of doubt you would say ‘Here at last is the thing I was made for.’ We cannot tell each other about it. It is the secret signature of each soul, the incommunicable and unappeasable want, the thing we desired before we met our wives or made our friends or chose our work, and which we shall still desire on our deathbeds, when the mind no longer knows wife or friend or work. While we are, this is. If we lose this, we lose all.
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released October 29, 2016
Vital Weekly 1064 -
Maybe adding information of whatever kind is regarded by some as… old hat? Superfluous? A pain? A trouble? It is hard to say. It is not something that Katja Institute likes to share with us. This is a CDR; right out of the shop, with absolutely no information, no cover, no writing on it, nothing. Not easy to find again if you are looking for it. There wasn't a lot on the inserted information, other that they are 'a small organization working with reflected sound' and this is their fifth project, they hail from California, plus some quote by David Lynch. The Bandcamp page has even less. I mailed and learned that everything here is about the actual sound, the experience of hearing and that there should be no distraction from that; plus they have no money to hire a designer. There is one piece on the CDR, that lasts exactly forty minutes and on the Bandcamp site it is split into four pieces, not exactly ten each, but six, thirteen, fifteen and six again minutes. There are distinct pieces, I think, but somehow they don't seem to match up with the track listing on bandcamp. Whatever this group does it certainly deals with a lot of electronics to produce a lot of very minimal drones. For a long time, say from around the seventh minute break to somewhere twenty-one minutes it seems as if this music got stuck in machine and the machine is doing the music. Even beyond that point the music stays pretty much the same, with the only difference that there is a slight change in the effects menu. Only after thirty-four minutes it really moves somewhere else; the drone becomes much lighter, with the entire bass end removed. This was an okay release, I think, but perhaps something that we heard before too much? Maybe it's too much of a standard drone excursion and that's not enough; there should be something more of their own in this. (FdW)
